Only out of the deepest darkness can the brightest light shine
What if your pain had something to teach you?
What if your illness or injury was your body trying to get your attention?
What if you could you find your power again through your suffering?
Would you get quiet enough to listen?
I did, even though it was the last thing I ever thought I could do. But at the time, that seemed like a choice I had to make. Life or death. I was eighty pounds overweight, pre-diabetic and suicidal. It seemed like I knew all along that this day would come; my body could only take so much. With liver failure and certain death knocking at my door in 2008, I knew I had to listen and finally face the pain that I was trying to silence.
And wow, did the pain have a lot to tell me! I sat with it all, stared down my demons and reclaimed my power. The pain became my guide on the path to wellness.
Instead of running and numbing, for once, I stayed. I sat with the intensity of the physical and emotional pain that had tormented me for so long. And there, feeling so lost, I found myself. I found the path to my power in my pain. In the face of connection to my true self, past addictions to drugs including benzodiazepines and opioids, cigarettes, alcohol, shopping and food dissolved.
I processed childhood trauma and teenage sexual assault. I overcame mental health labels and the misdiagnoses of the Western world, including bipolar disorder. My expanded awareness led me to question everything, including depression, anxiety and panic attacks—the parts of myself that I believed defined me.
My physical and emotional pain imprisoned me for so long. But in the light of developing consciousness, I was able to better navigate the perils of becoming a new mom and postpartum depression in 2014. In 2017, my pain guided me back to health from an infected and overloaded nervous system as a result of stage 4, chronic active Epstein-Barr Virus.
Adversity has taught me many things about life and death; illness and pain; health and wellness; being human and finding balance. And today, I am healing, one moment at a time. I’m living life to the fullest; abundant; happy; thriving.
Today, I live with chronic pain and a chronic illness that has no cure. I manage symptoms with a lifestyle that supports my health instead of eroding it. I accept the unpredictable nature of life, live simply and find joy in even the mundane. I live with the peace of mind, body and soul that I was so desperately seeking at the start of this journey.
I’m alive today, sharing and teaching what I’ve learned along the way. I do this because of my devotion to my healing and my desire to reach and empower those with similar struggles.
On this journey to wellness, I’ve developed a unique blend of therapeutic, yin, gentle and restorative yoga. I incorporate the eight limbs of yoga, elements of mindfulness, meditation, movement, guided imagery, spirituality, reiki energy, mudra, mantra, breathing techniques, sound therapy and aromatherapy. It is the opposite of the “exercise yoga culture” that has inundated our society today.
It’s a blend of yoga that is accessible to everyone and every body. We make these practices work for us and let them serve us in our greatest work — our journey to wellness.
I’ve also written two Amazon best-selling yoga books which include my unique style of yoga as well. I also travel the country sharing my story through motivational speaking, yoga workshops and retreats.
- RYT-500, registered 500 hour Yoga Instructor through Yoga Alliance
- E-RYT-200, registered 200 hour Yoga Instructor through Yoga Alliance
- YACEP, Yoga Alliance Continuing Education Provider
- Certified Therapeutic Yoga Instructor
- Certified Pranakriya Prenatal Yoga Instructor
- Certified Level II Reiki Master
I continue my education by deepening my personal practice, immersing myself into yoga, meditation, spirituality and teaching—my students are my best teachers! Every moment in my life is a chance for presence, spiritual growth and expansion, as I become the best version of myself that I can be. I’m currently immersed in Sacred Rivers Yoga Studio’s 300-hour Yoga Teacher Training and graduate June 2019.
I’m an avid reader and study with National Yoga Teachers and well-respected spiritual leaders who compliment my own beliefs and teachings, such as Abraham-Hicks, Sadhguru, Anodea Judith, Tara Brach, Wayne Dyer, Pema Chodron, Byron Katie, Louise Hay, Jack Kornfield, Thich Nhat Hanh, Lee Albert, Sogyal Rinpoche, Judith Lasater, Todd Norian, Judith Orloff, Sarah Powers, Sharon Salzberg, Eckhart Tolle, Marianne Williamson, Ram Dass, Deepak Chopra, Oprah Winfrey, Marie Forleo, Kris Carr, Gary Vaynerchuk, Andy Frisella, Lewis Howes, Tony Robbins, Peter Levine, Don Miguel Ruiz, Vanda Scaravelli, Mel Robbins and Teal Swan.