Hello, I’m Cyndi and I’m glad you’re here!

If you’re reading this, at your wit’s end and feeling like you have tried everything to feel better, but just got more of the same dead-ends—keep reading. I understand how you feel. You’re not alone.

I’ve gone from utter hell to healing, saving my life—twice. I’ve faced death and I’ve lived with chronic illness for over two decades. I’m living proof that you can turn it around and feel better.

Read my story
 

Hello, I’m Cyndi and I’m glad you’re here!

If you’re reading this, at your wit’s end and feeling like you have tried everything to feel better, but just got more of the same dead-ends—keep reading. I understand how you feel. You’re not alone.

I’ve gone from utter hell to healing, saving my life—twice. I’ve faced death and I’ve lived with chronic illness for over two decades. I’m living proof that you can turn it around and feel better.

Read my story
 

Hello, I’m Cyndi and I’m glad you’re here!

If you’re reading this, at your wit’s end and feeling like you have tried everything to feel better, but just got more of the same dead-ends—keep reading. I understand how you feel. You’re not alone.

I’ve gone from utter hell to healing, saving my life—twice. I’ve faced death and I’ve lived with chronic illness for over two decades. I’m living proof that you can turn it around and feel better.

Read my story

Cyndi Roberts - before and after transformation - how I used yoga, meditation and nutrition to save my life

Today, I live a conscious lifestyle with much health, love, laughter, clarity and ease. I’m fulfilled with life and my work. I nurture and enjoy the relationships I have and love meeting new people.

Today, the world feels safe and I’m able to flow with the ups and downs of life without numbing or distracting.

But it wasn’t always this way.

There was a time when I was hopelessly lost in the dark. I was trapped in the despair of depression and the crippling grip of anxiety, with a prescription in my hand as the only thing that was supposed to make me feel better. Doctors never spoke about alternatives or lifestyle changes—only more drugs.

A misdiagnosis of bipolar disorder and countless addictions pushed my health to the limit in 2008. In December of that year, I learned that I had about six months to live before my liver failed. Overweight, overwhelmed, pre-diabetic, suicidally depressed, addicted, fearful, hopeless and lost—that was me back then.

I was searching for anything to free me from the hell I was trapped in, but nothing seemed to work. My health continued to decline, because I had the wrong tools… but I didn’t know the right tools even existed.

Did you know that we store our life experiences in our bodies and nervous systems?

Our bodies love us so much, they take and store experiences that the brain can’t process in the moment. And when we’re talking about traumatic experiences, those traumatic events get stored with stress hormones. Each time those stress hormones are triggered in our lives, so too are the remnants of the past imprinted on the body, thus creating a cycle of trauma between the mind and body.

This cycle of trauma is what had me stuck, though I didn’t know it at the time. Over time, this traumatic cycle shaped my thought patterns and who I believed I was. The patterns of trauma imprinted deeper and deeper within my cells and turned into negative beliefs. Those beliefs blocked my true nature of well-being, peace, clarity, creativity, abundance, love and health.

I believed I was unworthy.

I believed I was destined to be unhealthy and miserable.

And I felt that in my body.

Those beliefs nearly killed me. Somehow, through all of it, my intuition came through. My spirit wanted to survive and heal. I knew there was more to life than pain. I realized that I was ready for something different. I didn’t know how, but knew I had to try.

I was addicted to smoking, pain killers, alcohol, drugs, shopping, and food, and on a dozen medications for bipolar disorder—I was doing anything I could to numb myself and not deal with the psychological and physical pain I felt.

Turning it around seemed impossible. 37 doctors told me they wanted no part of helping me get off the medication.

Thankfully, number 38 said yes and the slow, methodical, excruciating process of detoxing under medical care began.

Along the way, I intuitively knew I had to go inward. I knew I had to feel in order to heal. I trusted I could navigate through these rough seas. I had nothing left to lose.

So I began to practice mindfulness, movement, meditation and breathwork. Things began to shift. I studied more. I practiced more. I healed layer by layer and stayed with the practices. Healing was anything but comfortable or linear, but I stuck with it anyway because nothing else had worked.

It took self-inquiry, dedication and hard work to heal the pain stored in my body. For once, I allowed and accepted painful, traumatic experiences that I had used my addictions to silence. I let my past experiences finally have the voice they needed. I smothered myself with compassion, love and forgiveness.

Before I knew it, a significant shift in my health came. I began 2010 off all medications! From there, I healed the damage done to my liver, celebrated sobriety and changed my negative mindset. I lost the 80 pounds of extra weight I had been carrying around too.

2010 was the year I decided I was worth it, that I was ready to heal and continue on this path. I decided to no longer carry the burden of trauma and lovingly release it.

I felt like I was finally living.

But then in late 2013, something shifted. I began experiencing unexplainable pains and challenges in my body. I figured that my stress levels were elevated; I was working too much and pushing too hard with life. I carried on with my practices and daily rituals, trying to remain excited about my newfound health. Soon, I was ready to fulfill my lifelong dream of becoming a mom.

When I got pregnant, things shifted again. I had a very healthy pregnancy but still didn’t feel quite right. I experienced chronic insomnia and severe exhaustion. I simply couldn’t get enough rest.

After the birth of my son, things shifted even more. I found myself mired in post-partum depression, following a bout of mastitis. The insomnia became worse and new symptoms showed up, including joint pain and muscle fatigue. My naturopath believed I had Lyme Disease. I tested negative.

My fatigue and insomnia got worse and I began experiencing neurological symptoms like tingling and numbness in my hands, feet and face. I felt arthritic, exhausted and my body hurt all the time. I wondered if this was just part of being a new mom and balancing life.

Fibromyalgia, Arthritis, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Multiple Sclerosis were the next diagnoses. No one could seem to explain what was going on. And I couldn’t either.

I had struggled with unexplainable health issues and mystery illness my whole life, but it seemed now it was all coming to a head—and in fact, getting worse. A lot worse. I kept going about normal everyday life teaching private therapeutic yoga clients and running a business, enjoying a healthy marriage, caring for my son, following a healthy diet, paying the bills, keeping up the house. But no matter what I did, I still felt awful.

With my health failing, the pressure was on when I couldn’t keep up and had no idea why. I felt as though I was failing as a human being, and I didn’t understand how I could be eating healthy, practicing my meditations and yoga daily but still feel so awful, all the time.

The stress skyrocketed when I received the news that my mother had been diagnosed with stage 4 small cell lung cancer and secondary liver cancer. My practices gave me the space to hold it all, but I didn’t—couldn’t—process or clear it out fast enough.

2016 was a challenging year—my health declined rapidly. The stress of becoming a new mom, watching my mom slowly die and keeping up with life proved to be too much.

I experienced extreme chronic pain throughout my body: in my joints, muscles and nerves, in addition to intense fatigue. At one point the nerve pain was so severe my body felt like it was on fire. I would lose feeling in my hands, feet and face. I had memory issues, problems with my digestion and eyesight, trouble managing stress and the insomnia continued to get worse. It was as though my nervous system was slowly breaking down.

And then when my mom died, in the spring of 2017, it did break down. Completely.

A week later, the book Medical Medium by Anthony William came to me. I believe it was my mother’s spirit that directed me to it. For the first time in my life, I read every one of my unexplained symptoms on a single page.

There was a name for what I was feeling. In fact, there was an explanation for a lifetime of chronic illness.

As I read the words on the page before me, I knew in an instant that I had stage four, chronic active Epstein-Barr virus.

I went to my naturopath with this, and blood tests confirmed it. Epstein-Barr Virus. The diagnosis shook me. The grief confused me. It sent me into a deep void. My nervous system was overloaded from the intense emotional stress I was under and from the neurotoxins of the virus.

Standard protocol for treating Epstein-Barr (EBV) is to give the body heavy doses of antiviral herbs. My body vehemently rejected this method of treatment. I felt worse, quickly.

I ended up in the emergency room in August 2017, feeling so awful I was convinced I was dying. Test after test showed there was “nothing clinically wrong with me.” The ER doctor said I was dehydrated, anxious and under stress.

They sent me home later that same night with a prescription for Ativan and a $2,000 bill. Again, Western medicine had no answers for me.

Regaining my health was—again—up to me.

To treat EBV, I focused on boosting my immune system, to allow my body to fight the virus itself. I came right back to my practices. In fact, I never stopped. I slowed down and said “no” more often. I loved my family. I let there be mystery as to why this was happening. I rested when I could. I worked. I ran my business. I healed a little bit. I was mom to a toddler that turned three and then four. I healed more. I was a wife supporting a husband going through a change in his career and who was fearful of what was happening to his wife. I was grateful for the support of my family and close friends. I practiced. I persevered—because I had to—even when I had no strength and the fatigue was debilitating.

Life went on around me. And I wasn’t a part of it. It was going on without me and many times I felt lost. To most, it didn’t look like there was anything “wrong” with me. They had no idea. And most people just couldn’t wrap their heads around it because so little is known about this virus.

And while this was happening, I couldn’t go live in a cave or tell my son I couldn’t be mommy today. He definitely didn’t understand why mommy needed to be in bed so much. It was hard on him. It was hard on my husband. It was hard on my clients—I couldn’t close my business. My practices gave me the strength and clarity needed to continue on through those darkest of days and save my life once again, even though this life didn’t look at all like the life I had built. I had to let go of the way life was. In order to heal, I had to make peace with that. And I had to make peace with this virus. The grief. The trauma. The fear. I had to make peace that all of these things were here for me to work on. I couldn’t escape this time. I needed to heal, for good.

I allowed the discomfort. I knew that in order to grow, I had to be uncomfortable. And I was! I knew there was so much for me to learn.

I kept coming back to self-care. Even if all I could do was lie down and breathe, I did it. I continued to incorporate tons of fruits and vegetables in my diet. I worked closely with a naturopathic doctor and continued with my practices, even when I didn’t feel like it.

I practiced during times when I wanted to break down and complain or feel sorry for myself. I sat with the crippling anxiety and fear again. I faced each wave of depression and overwhelm. I went deep inside through self-inquiry and contemplation. I deepened my awareness. I witnessed stressful thinking and resistance to this new reality I was facing. I meditated for the next steps for healing and the strength to carry on. I let it all be there. I let it all be okay. I let it be exactly as it was.

From illness to wellness

These practices saved my life—again. My commitment and dedication to my practices kept shifting me, once again, from illness to wellness. I gained the mental fortitude needed to cope with chronic illness and chronic pain, both emotionally and physically.

The awareness of my body that I had cultivated over 10 years of practicing mindfulness, meditation, movement and breathwork meant that I felt every single symptom, every painful second, deeply. I felt it all in ways that confounded doctors and alternative medicine experts, who were convinced it was simply not possible for me to have the level of awareness of my body that I had developed.

I thought I knew how to sit with intense feelings and emotions the first time I regained my health, back in 2010. That was nothing. I took a closer look during my second brush with death without turning to addictions, without numbing myself from feeling. I felt it all and I used my elevated consciousness to not only guide me back to health but to find the gems hidden within the shadows. I was coming back from this journey with even more wisdom to share.

And now, I have the final piece to the puzzle and the reason behind my first and second health crises. I’ve got the key that allowed me to break through and move past a lifetime of suffering and illness.

Mindfulness. Meditation. Movement. Breathwork.

These practices grounded me in faith and hope that I would make it through and become better than I’ve ever been. These practices have made it possible for me to live with chronic pain and chronic illness. Healthier than ever. Wiser than ever. Stronger than ever with an open heart and a happy soul living my true purpose.

2019 marks 2 years post EBV diagnosis. My body is safely releasing the neurotoxins that infected my Vagus nerve and entire nervous system. Major symptoms have subsided and the virus is quieter every day. It’s as though my system has been rebooted and I’m finding relief from the pain and remaining symptoms through mindfulness, meditation, movement and breathwork. My body feels so different each time I come to my practices. But I greet myself exactly where I am without expectation or judgment.

I’m at peace with the idea that there is no cure for Epstein-Barr virus, but I am proof that we can use these practices to manage symptoms and have a fulfilled, happy, abundant, healthy life.

I’m processing the trauma deep within, healing bit by bit, forgiving and finding freedom. I’m healing negative beliefs programmed in my subconscious mind, that built a life of illness for me. The clarity and wisdom I’ve received on this amazing journey is the gift that has been worth all the hard work.

Free from the past, I now serve those who are ready to find their strength and journey to freedom.

How did I turn it all around?
And how can you do the same?

Mindfulness. Movement. Meditation. Breathwork.

It took exploration of my interior world to discover the root of my pain and suffering. Using these four techniques, I was able to unravel the mess of poor coping skills, self-created suffering, drama and unconscious behavior that I was living in. And through this unraveling:

  • I developed compassion for my pain;
  • I cultivated awareness;
  • I developed an understanding of my addictions;
  • I developed an understanding of what my intense emotions were trying to tell me;
  • I understood—for the first time ever—why I didn’t want to feel pain and what I needed to do to turn it all around.

I was carrying the heavy burden of trauma around with me. Long term, these buried negative emotions were devastating to my health.

Facing death taught me that I could no longer survive without feeling. In order to heal, I needed to feel what I had been stuffing down. I needed to get quiet and hear the cries from my body. I needed to make peace with my past.

It was time to find worthiness within myself, from myself, not from anyone else. It was time to approve and accept who I was. Self-care became my saving grace and with dedicated practice, I have turned my darkness into pure light, love, joy, well-being and peace. I learned how I could change the unhealthy momentum that had ensued and get back to health. I changed my practice of stress and illness to peace and wellness. I had to forgive. And forgiveness was for me—not to condone what had been done to me—but to lighten my heart and move on without the burden weighing me down.

Only out of the deepest darkness can the brightest light shine.

This conscious lifestyle awakened me to what’s really important and what my purpose is in this life. And that purpose is to help others that have hit a crossroads in their lives to find deeper meaning—to reclaim their power and awaken.

When you work with me, I’ll share my knowledge and lived experience with you. Each session will be catered to your individual needs, and we’ll take the inward journey together in a safe, clean, mindful and peaceful environment.

It’s time to look within for the answers and feel empowered.

I’ll encourage you to explore and discover your truth and release the blocks preventing your health and well-being from flowing to you. I’m merely the guide—you will do the work of discovery for the maximum benefit. I’ll share with you the tools you need to manage the ups and downs of life more efficiently and peacefully, just like me.

The practices you will learn with me will help you to create a connection to your intuition, so you may feel as empowered as I did. Together, we can nurture that connection to guide you along your healing path.

One-on-one holistic wellness with Cyndi Roberts - West Hartford, CT

It's time for you

Through mindfulness, movement and meditation, I’ll teach you how to trust yourself—to know what’s right for you and to carry that with you in your life every day. My private studio is conveniently located at 91 South Main Street in West Hartford. That’s just two blocks from Blue Back Square and the center of town.


My book

Yoga For Low Back and Hip Health offers proven and easy to follow yoga instruction to relieve pain in the back and hips naturally—without drugs or surgery!


 

Kathy from Farmington says…

“Through our time together Cyndi has revealed my very fulfilling life to me. It was passing me by at record speed. I merely existed, passing time and suffering… always hoping for something in the future to ease my stress, but rarely finding it for much time at all.

As Cyndi listens and watches, she assesses and guides my yoga practice so that with each session I am stronger, both physically and mentally. She’s an empath with extraordinary skills. Many people—even those unaware of my practice—have noticed that I’m significantly changed. I’m confident, healthy and at peace.

If anyone wants help with stress management, grief, any loss of self or just a window to significantly greater peace and ease, time with Cyndi is magical—you’ve only got to open the door and let yourself listen.”

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Kathy from Farmington says…

“Through our time together Cyndi has revealed my very fulfilling life to me. It was passing me by at record speed. I merely existed, passing time and suffering… always hoping for something in the future to ease my stress, but rarely finding it for much time at all.

As Cyndi listens and watches, she assesses and guides my yoga practice so that with each session I am stronger, both physically and mentally. She’s an empath with extraordinary skills. Many people—even those unaware of my practice—have noticed that I’m significantly changed. I’m confident, healthy and at peace.

If anyone wants help with stress management, grief, any loss of self or just a window to significantly greater peace and ease. Time with Cyndi is magical—you’ve only got to open the door and let yourself listen.”

What if the answers you’ve been searching for were within you all along?

What if you were presented with the solution that fit your specific health needs? Would you do whatever it takes to make those changes in your life to feel more at ease, happy and well?

If you are ready for the healthy, happy and successful life you desire, I can show you the way. Click the “book your session” button below to begin your transformation. I look forward to our time together. Many blessings and peace, xo

My qualifications

What does this all mean?

Continuing education

I continue my education by deepening my personal practice, immersing myself into yoga, meditation, spirituality and teaching—my students are my best teachers! Every moment in my life is a chance for presence, spiritual growth and expansion, as I become the best version of myself that I can be. I’m currently immersed in Sacred Rivers Yoga Studio’s 300-hour Yoga Teacher Training and graduate June 2019.

I’m an avid reader and study with National Yoga Teachers and well-respected spiritual leaders who compliment my own beliefs and teachings, such as Abraham-Hicks, Sadhguru, Anodea Judith, Tara Brach, Wayne Dyer, Pema Chodron, Byron Katie, Louise Hay, Jack Kornfield, Thich Nhat Hanh, Lee Albert, Sogyal Rinpoche, Judith Lasater, Todd Norian, Judith Orloff, Sarah Powers, Sharon Salzberg, Eckhart Tolle, Marianne Williamson, Ram Dass, Deepak Chopra, Oprah Winfrey, Marie Forleo, Kris Carr, Gary Vaynerchuk, Andy Frisella, Lewis Howes, Tony Robbins, Peter Levine, Don Miguel Ruiz, Vanda Scaravelli, Mel Robbins and Teal Swan.